on a mission to be..what I'm destined to be..

Gyokuro

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803 3-2 57:00 6.0-6.5 - 6.3 - 6.8 interval 6.09 no weight

Can the swine flu actually last thru the warm season? The number of cases has ballooned to 130 with one 'serious' case that has emerged in Alberta. I'm drawing a blank as to what to think of it. I hope in 3 months time it doesn't end up being a major obstacle in my travelling plans. It's a mystery determining how the outcome of GM's fate effects my project. unpredictable. There have been times I complain about my job but I have to be mindful of the fact that I still have a job and keep things in perspective.

It's been definitely a challenge so far trying to discipline all aspects at one given time. I need to take steps and gradually let things come one by one and hopefully down the line I have improved and allowed things to become second nature.

My friend has given me suggestions of possible outdoor activities. The idea of maybe attempting to challenge him Grouse Grind followed by a 10K has brought motivation once again to physcially condition myself.

It's interesting that things I've never been a fan of I'm started to develop interest in. In anything.

I've incorporated and put more emphasis in stretching and developing my core in my workouts. I definitely feel it in my left leg at the core and groin area. It's like this area has never ever been stretched before but the stretch definitely feels good. Not sure if the side effects I'm experiencing is due to creatine but I've decided to stop taking them and and see what results in the next couple of weeks.

Back to protein shakes. My concoction currently entails frozen blueberries, banana, lime juice, vanilla yogurt, honey, Kaizen brand vanilla ice cream flavor protein, milk, and ice cubes. missing watermelon.

I've become and avid tea consumer as of late. Tea bags vs tea leaves. I've decided to explore tea leaves. "they" say green tea has remarkable benefits. Loaded with anti-oxidants.

As quoted, Gyokuro is the most premium japanese leaf green tea available. 4 weeks prior to the harvest, the entire plantation is covered with tarp shading. this helps to increase the chlorophyll into the tips of the tea leaves, which are then meticulously hand harvested to prepare the most exclusive japanese leaf tea. the tea leaves are so delicate and soft that they can be eaten like spinach.


I'm intrigued to find out what a fine tea tastes like. Ordered Gyokuro and Muzi Matcha for now and see how things go the next few months with this. Will I actually feel any different. Hopefully for the better.

I hope I can keep this up.

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"He has brought me to his banquet hall, And his banner over me is love."
song of solomon 2:4

the wheels begin to turn. 3 months from now I will get a glimpse of my possible destination in the near future. a fresh start suited for the single guy. my minds been restless this week. anxiety has kicked in telling me to just get up and go. looking towards 2010? am I even going to last till 2011 let along this summer. a road trip driving the distance across the country? sell everything and go? my heart feels alive and awake. my heart wants out to be set free from this place. I've been distracted with many things and have lost focus spiritually so far this year. need to get back to the fundamentals. need to get my mind right. my spirit right. my body right. right motivation. right intention. If God grants me this desire I will be forever grateful but if He has other plans for me than I will be grateful all the same. accelerate, decelerate, or have another plan for me for Your will only. If I can't even discipline myself in all aspects of my life and give it to You wholly for 3 months, I am not worthy for anything.

"...do not stir up or awaken love until it is ready."

looking towards 2 0 1 1

my plans seem to always unravel at a slower pace than I anticipate. never in control of the events that occur in between. it's closing in towards 2 years come September that I uprooted myself from London. I know now that where I am now is the waiting/prepping stage for the things to come. My hearts desire is drawn to the west coast and I have now set myself a timeline of 2 years to uproot myself from here and kiss the sands of kitsilan beach in the year I turn the big 33. I am open to the fact that things may accelerate or deccelerate but I heart has finally decided. Hopefully the economy is on its way to recovery by then and I am ready. I wait in anticipation.

The throbbing

The last few weeks I've been feeling a throbbing on the left side of head. It comes and goes. Not too sure how it came about. It's possible from the creatine or working out too intensely but nevertheless it has faded.

This week triggered events which really made me feel strongly not wanting to be here. My hearts desire is to be elsewhere. Is the here a preparation for elsewhere? Taking it a step at a time and trying to be patient. I wait on You, Lord.

It's sad for me that the only solitude and escape I can find is indulging myself in volleyball and working out.

Winter slumber has past the summer is approaching. The running shoes are out again. I push myself. Determined. Wondering how many more seasons I can keep this up for before my body finally gives way and tells me all this is going to come to an end. My will does not give in.

Why is developing a character of hospitality not a coveted thing? It's stifling at times when i'm in the midst of this type of environment especially in a church. Actions speak louder than the words preached.

about a boy

Hamilton children locked in basement

Police charge parents, grandmother after two boys, 5 and 2, discovered in urine-soaked room

Apr 10, 2009 04:30 AM
Paul Morse
Torstar News Service

Two young children were rescued from a feces-smeared windowless basement room where Hamilton police allege they had been kept locked up by their relatives.

A third child is also believed to have been living in the basement.

The 35-year-old father, 27-year-old mother and 60-year-old grandmother of the two boys, aged 2 and 5, were charged this week with forcible confinement. The grandmother also faces an assault charge.

The children were found on April 2 when police went to the Stoney Creek Mountain home after an 911 call was received from an unknown caller. Investigators now believe one of the children made the call.

Police, who are required to check all unknown 911 calls, at first found nothing out of the ordinary, said Det. Sgt. Chris Kiriakopoulos of Hamilton police. But, "when an officer came near the basement stairs, he heard a cry from downstairs."

Officers found a 5-year-old boy near the bottom of the stairs "in a state of anxiety and fear," then discovered a small room with a 2-year-old boy inside. "The room was filthy beyond words, and the officer who entered it said he almost couldn't breathe from the stench," Kiriakopoulos said.

Bunk beds in the windowless, pitch-black room were soaked with urine. Feces were smeared on the walls. "The room was very filthy and officers found dead rats outside the room," Kiriakopoulos said.

The door had been locked with a latch and it appeared that the children "had been confined inside the room for periods of time."

Child-abuse investigators, armed with a search warrant, went through the home the next day. Six children in all, aged 2 to 13, had been living there. They are now in foster care. "The kids have been checked medically and they're all clear," Kiriakopoulos said.

Dominic Verticchio, executive director of the Children's Aid Society of Hamilton, said children's aid workers had routinely been checking on two children who lived with their grandparents on the main floor of the home. "But nobody knew the other children were living there," he said.

The CAS had been involved with those children for "a couple of months." A third child, aged 13, also lived on the main floor, but was not in CAS care.

"The living conditions were impeccable. No problems at all ... They were being well cared for," Verticchio said. "We are very shocked. We had no idea of what is going on in the basement."

He said three children were living in the basement with their mother. Her boyfriend, Verticchio said, is the son of the couple who lived upstairs and also the father of the two children who were being visited by the CAS. It is unclear whether the father – who had been ordered by a court to stay away from his children – was living in the home.

Hamilton Spectator


How many of these cases are there? These are being brought to light with such frequency that it disturbs me to wonder how many children grow up in such environments with no one knowing at all.

I can't believe it's almost been a year and half since I uprooted myself from London. I've been caught up with everyday life unaware that time is zipping by me.

love and self-sacrifice should go hand in hand.

A year and a half later Tristen sends me a message.

There are times I am saddened that I have gone ahead and left him behind. He brought me up to speed with the current events of his life which prompted me to visit him today. Took him to Mandarin only to find we are amateurs at this thing called buffet.

I probed to find out more of his family background and extended family because I have found that you can better understand why an individual acts the way he does by how he's brought up and what's he surrounded with. It is his norm because that is what he sees.

It's interesting that he had doubts about me coming even when I said I would. Can't blame him because his father has stood him up so many times and it's ingrained in him. I know that if I stand him up just once I am no better.

I feel the wheels beginning to turn again. My time of rest is nearing it's end in this chapter it seems. An opportunity to lift myself out of idleness has presented itself and I have taken it.

snails to ants to flies

Nothing is more upsetting than to hear a people starting a relationship, getting married for selfish reasons and having the nerve to bring a child in the world and be totally irresponsible in raising this child and than have him grow up looking in all the wrong places for an empty love to fill the void that should never have existed if real genuine love was given to him in the family.

If you ask me why this world is so messed up now with violence,etc it's because of the neglect of the child as he grows up.

I was put in a spot of temptation a couple weeks back. Went to withdraw money from a bank machine only to find the previous customer forgot to take his cash. He had left already and I was unsure what to do with it. Only $20 was left behind but still. I took it but felt uncomfortable with it. Fortunately the guy returned and I returned his $20. What would I have done if it was $ 20, 000? Good thing I was not put in that position.

It seems different types of infestations keep popping up. First it was snails in my fish tank. The occurance of ants in the kitchen, and now waking to flies that just suddenly appear buzzing around my windows. What's the purpose of this if there is any?